Yes Rhea this resonates! At 60 yrs old, I am taking the final class next semester for yet another associate degree. I have subscriptions to Udemy and Skill Share. I, too, am organized in my job and use to feel like the absent minded professor in my other pursuits. How it changed for me...I stopped chasing the dopamine. I focus on my joy during the learning or the research and release the expectation of doing anything with it! - present moments without judgment. Good article! (i'll join your tribe)